I never did make it to Oaksterdam U.When I enrolled they did,nt process it because they were moving their offices.Weeks went by and by the time they got around to calling back I had spent all my money on weed.Eventhough my plan was to go there and not smoke for the whole time I was there which is why I was smoking as much as I could.Fuck it you can only get so high.Damn you Oaksterdam U.I want to open a dispensary so I thought it would help...give me confidence if nothing else.Pot saved my life by helping me get through two regimens of chemo for hepatitis C.Without it I would have stopped treatment and I would be dead by now.I still have the mental effects of a toxic psychosis I went through that makes me feel that I'll never be the same.For instance did you ever notice that when you stare at something in the dark it can turn into goblins pretty fast if you don,t look away.Well look away dixie I was in no mood for goblins in my closet so I decided to stare them down.My heart was pounding but I would not stop until this apparition disappeared or revealed itself.It looked like it was coming out at me and I said out loud if you want me you are just going to have to come and get me.Right then it came out and guess what it was Jesus the whole time.What a kidder.Then I could,nt leave the apartment for days because of agora phobia.When I did I was walking up to Vons in Long Beach and I was crossing the street feeling the weight of the world and a little Mexican girl pointed at me to her mother and said "look mama, that man is carrying a cross on his back."Hey,it beats impaling.Ghengis Kahn used to stick a christmas tree up your ass.I don,t know if they pruned the branches or not,but thats gotta hurt.