I am on my way to becoming unrecognisable to myself as I age.I am turning into a senior citizen at 55 and its like being the first one into the cafeteria at lunch because just about all the people from the depression are gone now.I am both saddened and elated by this.Yes a new era is upon us yet without shape it remains unseen by the most astute among us.We as in Americans what ever that is have forgotton how to do the things that got us here because nobody thought we would ever need it enough to go through all the trouble to keep it safe and close at hand.Therefore humanity will repeat this abyssmal history all over again and again.Too big to fail my ass.About every 80 years the economy chokes on its own vomit and turns blue.Nothing to worry about.Panic is the worst thing you could do at the moment.Just concentrate on staying afloat and calming yourself down like a drowning victim.Of couse no one knows if we live or die and we never ever do anyway really.As immorality corrupts trust in a mission creep kind of way the process turns itself inside out and sheds its skin in a cycle beyond the life times of men and women and generally go unrecognised in their hour.We have a perfect storm of synchro-cycle convergences all coming at once.And then there is planetX come to pay a visit with a lot on her mind not the least of which is to bask in the light coming directly from the Milky Way galaxy with her companion star the Sun.Photos of crop circles in England show our solar system with the Earth missing.The gravitational effects of her electro-magnetic pull are beginning to be felt by all the planets.

Well, I am back in Los Angeles after spending the last 3/1/2 years to the day in Cleveland after I flew there for my sister Heidis' 50th birhtday.Plus after staying away for 10 years in places like Chicago,San Diego,and Los Angeles/Long Beach it was time to show up and get over myself ;a serious defect in my character in any case. Cleveland is one of those places where if you were,nt born there then you must have lost your mind to be there like falling in love deeply with somebody from there. I was born there so I have an excuse coming and going. I did this by working for airlines ,railroads and a bus company over the years. Cleveland has a long reach so I,ve come to find out ever so true all these years meant to be a week turned into years bundled together in my mind so I can retain some chron-illogical sense of it .The only sane choice is to stay away put it behind you and stop moving around damn it. I should have spent more time career planning instead of tossing coins in a Gay Bar deciding my future.What else is a fair way to bear weight on one side of the teeter-totter or the other if its come to that?Oh and it did many times until I saw a pattern emerging and immediately set to work end the practice. I finally did on July 17th 1983 when I fell off a bar stool and landed in a church basement at an AA meeting. Those universal portals are real my friends and are available to any one willing to see them when they appear. Getting willing is the hard part. I still have a fondness for my first pink cloud.Like losing your virginity you refuse to believe you won,t get it back but you don,t. I don,t drink anymore.I,m done with it this time for good.Three summers ago already was my last bout with it.I was knocked out first bounce off the ropes and wound up being carried away on a stretcher off the kitchen floor.Heart attack.