If the possiblity exists it will be realised eventually just like a land mine waiting to get stepped on.As always the question is not a matter of if but when.The human psyche carries whith it a dark shroud of such when over the span of life from the beginning having never experienced death other than le petite mort of orgasm.The conscience none the less dreads death like people dread moving day.So dying is really like being evicted.God is putting your shit out on the street that is all.You are not really dead it just looks that way.Yes its disgusting all that dead meat but nature comes to the rescue and cleans up the scene in a jiff.There are memories primeval inside of us that tell us a great die off is coming.Indeed we are well into the midst of it right now.The human race like an over gorged tick has come to the attention of its host .And that shroud over you is her deadly gaze as she prepares to extricate you off her skin with a pair of cosmic tweezers.All that nashing of teeth and such.In 1967 an ore boat left Cleveland harbor and just as it passsed the breakwall the waves broke it in half and it sank right there.Because it was in shallow water it became a shipping hazard so the Army corp of engineers dyked it off brought in fill dirt and made a reef and park out of it.Before they did I went down and walked out on part of the main deck that was above the waves.The wrath of Lake Erie is something to behold.I can recount more than one near death experience for underestimating her.But I had this nightmare about that place and bodies were being bulldozed as landfill there.In the dream I was still alive and the bulldozer was coming at me and even though I was yelling to the driver that I was alive he did'nt care and just kept coming.The human race is the driver and the victim but refuses to see either of them.This is our tragedy.

I suspect that with things like nuetrinos zipping through the material world with nary a care that on another level our existence makes its home much the same way inside a much bigger reality that knows we are here but does not feel us any more than the last nuetrino that just whizzed through your brain.Did you feel it?No Are you the same person you were?Also no.The scale of all things is in proportion from the visible to the invisisble.Just because it may be outside your range of perception does not give you reason to ignore it.That would be silly and it would show an earnest failing of the imagination which thrives on making mountains out of mole hills but is seldom interested in making mole hills out of mountains due to the tedious attention to detail required from such an effort.Is there any place in this universe that does not spin?Can anything be still in this realm? What would it mean?The horror of repetition and no escape are suffocating to the mind of the enlightened soul until that stillness is found there can be no comfort. Where is that quiet place in the mind?Alas sleep overtakes us mercifully because in the end it is all too much for us.To die is to awaken from a dream of a physical self that is aging with the corrosive effects of time.There is a still timeless place free from birth and death and harsh light and the pain of a body.It is my fervent hope that I find this place either in life or death.More will be revealed and that is a sure sign that something is unfolding for all of us.

Well I did it,I enrolled for classes at Oaksterdam U today for the Winter semester.I hope this will give me the knowledge that it takes to open a cannabizness when I graduate in 13 weeks starting January 12th 2010.I had help of course.This is the first of its kind since the era of prohibition ended that a new commerce opens up with legal pot.I don,t have much politically to talk about.The vaudeville act that is American politics has become so unreal that a trance would be an improvement over the awareness our leadership demonstrates.If putting people to sleep was'nt enough to qualify our politicians for office then maybe boring them to death does.Washington is a contract clearing house for global corporations redistributing the public weal amonst themselves.In Italy they have a name for this,fascism.A majority of the electorate like all these logos patched on everything.It gives them comfort knowing that something as big and slick is in charge.Its not unlike tribal membership.Evasion is an art form in corporate America.All that shifting and evading responsibility over time leads to madness over time which is why profiteering always leads to tyranny.The people are looted eventually and left destitute and powerless.Only after a long bitter struggle lasting decades does freedom become possible again.Rinse Repeat.What happens to the least of these happens to all of us.The conceited notion of exceptionalism is exposed for what it is which is nothing if not childish.There but for the grace of God go I.But what about the other poor schmuck who did'nt make it in this darwinian economy.Did'nt Gods Grace extend to him also?No you just get what you get until its gone and you with it someday sooner than later.And so it goes.