Well, I am back in Los Angeles after spending the last 3/1/2 years to the day in Cleveland after I flew there for my sister Heidis' 50th birhtday.Plus after staying away for 10 years in places like Chicago,San Diego,and Los Angeles/Long Beach it was time to show up and get over myself ;a serious defect in my character in any case. Cleveland is one of those places where if you were,nt born there then you must have lost your mind to be there like falling in love deeply with somebody from there. I was born there so I have an excuse coming and going. I did this by working for airlines ,railroads and a bus company over the years. Cleveland has a long reach so I,ve come to find out ever so true all these years meant to be a week turned into years bundled together in my mind so I can retain some chron-illogical sense of it .The only sane choice is to stay away put it behind you and stop moving around damn it. I should have spent more time career planning instead of tossing coins in a Gay Bar deciding my future.What else is a fair way to bear weight on one side of the teeter-totter or the other if its come to that?Oh and it did many times until I saw a pattern emerging and immediately set to work end the practice. I finally did on July 17th 1983 when I fell off a bar stool and landed in a church basement at an AA meeting. Those universal portals are real my friends and are available to any one willing to see them when they appear. Getting willing is the hard part. I still have a fondness for my first pink cloud.Like losing your virginity you refuse to believe you won,t get it back but you don,t. I don,t drink anymore.I,m done with it this time for good.Three summers ago already was my last bout with it.I was knocked out first bounce off the ropes and wound up being carried away on a stretcher off the kitchen floor.Heart attack.